Stop regretting so much the reasons people have left. Focus more on the people who have stayed. Know that you are worthy of people staying, of people who love being around you.
Every single time something has fallen apart in my life, I’ve looked back with gratitude eventually.
I might spend a whole year crying and sleeping and working a part-time job and that’s okay if it’s what I need.
Your body will force you to take a break if you don’t listen to it asking for one. I saw this coming 2 years ago and ignored it. Now I’m 2 years older and realize I just prolonged it.
sometimes I get sad when I think about all the people who are missing out on the pleasures of life only because they’ve decided it wasn’t for them before they even gave it a shot :(
Like idk sometimes you just have to step out of your comfort zone and take a risk to seek happiness in life… I almost didn’t reach out to a classmate to ask if we could catch a movie bc it felt lame, but I did and now they’re one of my best friends and we live together. I put off seeing live music for years because I was afraid to go alone and I thought I’d hate it, but after I finally pushed myself to go to a show alone I realized I fucking loved it! This year alone I’ve probably seen more live music than every year before this combined. I thrifted a film camera, bought some film, and then put off learning how to use it for two years because I was afraid people would think I looked stupid and I didn’t want to be bad at something. A month ago I realized the film was just gonna expire and go to waste anyways, so I pushed myself to give it a go and I’ve had so much fun learning something new just for me. Sure, I’ve had nights where I’ve gone to the club or trivia night or a library event, and thought it was bogus - but it wasn’t world ending either. I just left! But I felt happier just knowing I tried.
Romanticizing your life sounds so stupid but it will help you cope. Taking extra time to make a yummie coffee in the morning, sitting outide observing the wind in the trees, writing poems, going to old book stores, watching your childhood favourite movies, listening to romantic jazz, writing in a coffee shop, making sure you have moody lighting in your room, putting on asmr rooms as a background noise while you work. It’s not a solution, but it makes things a bit better.
